BE the honey badger

Good weekend. Made alot of bank, got stuff done that I have been neglecting for weeks, and I'm on my third (yes third!!!) bottle of Synthe-6. I have never stuck with anything like this for so long. The stuff really works, keeping me full for hours!!! Contact me if you need more info.
Got a little frustrated last night. Found out a friend reconciled with and old friend. For some reason it hurt me, because of everything I know about the relationship. But then I thought, why does this affect ME? I haven't hung around either of them in months, so why should I care. So, I decided to be the honey badger, and not care. I am happy for them that they decided to bury the hatchet, but it's not going to change the way I live my life. In fact, I don't believe anything will change, and the status quo will remain the same.

Frustrations continued, however, through the night. As I was sitting at my computer one of the cartridges for my Blu ran out. No biggie. So I opened another one. Dead. Had nothing in it. Brand new, right out of the box. OK, so I go for another one. DEAD! So i change batteries. First one, still dead. But alas, the second one did work. The problem with these e-cigs is that it is a machine. Machines fail. Regular cigs don't. But I'll stick with it. Don't wanna go back too far.  

I haven't weighed myself in weeks. Because of everything going on in the last four weeks, I haven't been mindful of what I eat, or exercising. And this second job is taking all the energy that I would normally use to exercise. Don't get me wrong, the money is great, and I am getting some exercise, just not the way I wanted to. The only comfort I take in all of this is knowing I can quit at any time. Just have to get a few unexpected bills paid off, and it'll be all good. Good night.......

Where the HELL have you been!!!!!!

OK, I've got good news and bad news. Good news, to quote Mark Twain, "The rumors of my death have been greatly exaggerated." (And to those of you who thought 'well that's the bad news', you can go sit on your thumb). The bad news, I have fallen off the wagon. I didn't slam face first, but I haven't done anything to help my situation. I am still using Syntha-6, still taking all my meds, and still watching what I eat......... watching it go into my mouth...... So I have gained a couple pounds back. I haven't lost all the progress I've made, but I did take a few steps back.

It has been a rough month. Not only did I have to endure the anniversary of my fathers death, his birthday was three weeks later. The family did celebrate, but it was still tough none the less. Little did I know that next on deck, wifey had to have back to back medical procedures. Good times. No worries, shes OK folks. Finally, I decided to get a second job. I don't NEED it, but it's nice to have the extra money, considering I had to take a pay cut to ensure I got 40 hours a week. So while I'm making some extra cash, I am actually preventing myself from sitting on my ass watching TV and pigging out more. WIN!

I could've let this blog wither away. I am not going to be able to update it as much as I like to anymore, so that was the logical choice. But an old friend inspired me to write again. They told me that they missed my posts, and in the past told me that in some way I inspire them. Weird, huh? So like the trooper I am, I shall endure. I can no longer consider this blog just for me. If y'all DO read it and it helps, no matter how many times I fall off that wagon, I believe I have done something for the better. So, thank you, my dear 7 readers.

Good... no GREAT morning!!!

WOW, did I sleep well!!!! NO headache, no fatigue, no nothing. Melatonin, here I come for the next few days!!! For now, though, I sit and wait. Doctor appointment at 2pm. Not looking forward to it, but it needs to be done. I have to see what I am lacking and what I have too much of. Body fat is one obvious answer!!! HAHA!!!

I was finally able to get my 2nd bottle of Syntha-6 on Saturday. Apparently, the Vitamin Shoppe has vendors come in every now and then to give out free samples.The first one I was offered??? OxyELITE Pro. AKA, purple pegasus. Ive taken them before, so I said, "nah." The guy was perplexed, but when I explained to him about the side effects I had, he backed off. Next was a built guy just offering a book and some advise. I listened to him and his story was nearly a mirror image to mine, except for the age part. Overweight at a young age, not wanting to be like his father (health wise), and not sure where to turn. So I bought his book, which I WILL read and review later. Finally, a boxing class for women. Wifey loved the idea, so she signed up for a contest for a free year.

I feel like I want to get alot done today. I requested this day off from work specifically to go to the doctor, but I slept so well last night, I don't want to waste the day away by watching movies. So lets see if my body can match the motivation in my mind!!!

Chaos Reigns

It was all planned out so perfectly. Go home on time, eat a good grilled chicken dinner, do some weight training and watch a little TV with wifey. But my plans be damned. It is now 8:30 and wifey and I are just now getting home. No time to cook anything healthy, the house is a mess, and to top it all off, I had no time in which to go to the health store for more Syntha-6. FML. All this because the people Best Buy don't know the difference between their ass and a hole in the ground!!!!!

Day 1, Pt. 2

I was finally able to work out today, after weeks of suffering with the creeping crud. I still have some of it in me, but its mostly gone. I hit the heavy bag today. Now the only problem is when I hit it, it decided to move. So there I was, going back and forth, up and down the spare room with this thing. I am also sure it was giving wifey a mad headache. When I started it felt kind of awkward, but after about a minute of hitting, I was in the zone. Sadly, it didn't last very long. That's right, lady readers, I was your typical male. Full of energy at the start and then BOOM!!!!! peaked quickly and was done. HAHAHAHA!!!


I only worked out for about 15-20 minutes, but I was ready to be done after 5. I had to push myself. If not now, when? If not here, where? Broke a good sweat, but I know now I am seriously out of shape. I am going to be watching more YouTube vids on good exercises for a free standing heavy bag tonite too. I know I shouldn't disappointed today, I did take another step forward, but I just cannot come to grips with how I let myself go so much. I am my own worst enemy.

Today I did have my normal shake, the gooooooooood sandwich I posted about earlier, and a not so healthy dinner. Enchiladas. Two out of three ain't bad, right? Meh, its more difficult than I thought to stay on a good diet. So many temptations out there. And again, I know I am making some progress, but somehow it doesn't seem like its enough to me. Its something I'll have to think about.

Next week, I am going to submit myself to my doctor. Poke, prod, do what you have to do. Take all the blood and urine you want, I need to know if there is something missing or if there is too much something. Every little bit helps and I refuse to do this half assed. Tomorrow, I hit the free weights and Perfect Pushups. Can't wait to tell you about it, my dear 7 readers!!! [Show some love and click that 'follow' button to the right!!!   ;) ]

Choices

We all have them. We all make them on a daily basis. Some are obvious. Do I get out of bed or sleep in? Do I make my lunch or do I go out? To be or not to be? Heh.... But some are more difficult, especially in my situation. To eat that key lime pie or not? To watch that extra episode of Family Guy or work out? Recently I wrote about how I want to clean up my life, from thoughts, to things and even people. And thinking about the choices I have made in the latter department, I sincerely hope I have made the right ones. Some were easy, others not so much. But they were all made for a reason, to improve my focus on what really matters, my family and health. I have been neglecting them for far too long. So what's done is done. And if you, dear reader, are one of the people who I had to make that choice about, just remember, I NEVER burn bridges. I am sorry, but it has to be this way.... for now.

Moving on, it is official. I have been pulled off the road at work. I now work in the warehouse permanently. Some may think I am a fool, losing all the overtime, but I did it for two reasons. First, it's steady work, with a set start and end time. That gives me the opportunity to plan things during the week, and possibly go to school. And B., (secondly for those who were paying attention) a new routing system is coming to my job. And from what I hear about it from talking with other locations who already have it, it's going to be a rough transition. Times are already tough now, so I went where the work was. I'm happy, you should be, too, damnit!!!

Ahh, tonights dinner. Peppercorn talipia, fresh spinach and rice pilaf. The sauce wasn't that good, so I scraped it off. Only about 650 calories for all of it, not too shabby. I did go above 1600 today though. Damn you Mountain Dew!!!!! But I stayed below 2000. I have been drinking alot more water lately, which is helping. And I am also almost out of Syntha-6. So far so good. Its a slow transition, but working so far. Tomorrow, I start the heavy bag. Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. Gonna ramp it up!!!

Now all I need is some good music to box to. One can only listen to "Eye of the Tiger" so much.....

I hate inventory

Helluva day today. For the past 4 weeks i've been preparing for this day. Counting, adjusting, counting again, adjusting again, moving things, counting,..... you get the point. So today was supposed to be a breeze. Nope. A total cluster in the morning. Not much organization, more of a "here you go, get it done" type method. It wasn't until after lunch I decided I had to do something about it. So I took a more active role in the execution of the process. Things went a bit quicker afterward. We got done at 6:30, much later than we wanted to considering all the work I put into prep. But, not many negative adjustment were needed, so thats a plus.    .....by the way, did I mention I hate inventory????

One good thing, I did keep busy. Not much time to snack. Protein shake for breakfast, then the boss ordered pizza for lunch. Only 3 slices. That may seem like much, but I can usually put away about 7 on a large pie. Kind of an iffy dinner, taquitos, but it was 7 pm when I got home. I was tired. Another thing is that I ate dinner last nite at 4:30 (frozen pizza), and wasn't remotely hungry the rest of the night. So while I am eating less, my choices aren't the best. They aren't the worst, but I could do better.

Because of the late home arrival, I had no time to do any sort of exerscise tonite. I was looking forward to trying these "Perfect Pushup" handles I got for myself a few weeks ago. I was always in better shape when I was doing a constant routine of push-ups, sit-ups and running. Every Friday, NJROTC. Its something I know, so I think I will try to start there.

Finally, for you 2012 doom and gloomers out there, there's hope!!!!

Finally!!!!

I can see an end to this stubborn sickness!!! I'm breathing easier, my nose is drying up, and I had more energy today. Big win. Lets just hope this trend continues. By getting an early start to this, I hope to have an epic 2012. Now I know I won't become the next big male model, ordering orange mocha frappuccinos and having gasoline fights, but I will feel better and get more done with more energy. Thats my goal.

That being said, I was bad today. Taco Bell for lunch. I know, I shouldn't have, but I won't do it again.... terrible gas!! HAHAHA!!! I still had my protein shake, and a pretty sensible dinner. With the fast pace of the holidays around, I could've done worse. So tomorrow its back to the norm.

I guess I'll end this post here. It is REALLY difficult to concentrate when the wife is watching Sailor Moon in the other room with the volume turned up...... MOON PRISIM POWER!!!!!!!

UGH.................... help me.......

Nowhere Fast

So it seems I can't get a grip on this cold I have. Been with me for 10 days now. The only good thing about it is that I didn't binge over Christmas. There was ALOT of food, good food, but I didn't touch most of it. Still, coughing up phlgem isn't any fun. I'm coughing so much that its giving me a headache and it's even hurting my teeth.

But, today wasn't a total waste. Working in the warehouse all day, breaking a sweat many times, I think I got my exerscise. As much as I can tolerate anyhow. Man, I can't wait to be over this cold. I just feel like I want to burst out and get up and move. Ah, well. Positive thinking...... and codeine cough syrup!!!

Today, I had my usual protein shake, 200 calroies, an 800 calorie lunch, snacks included, and half a sub sandwhich. Not sure of the calorie count, but it was from Publix, so you know it was DAMN GOOD. I've lost about a pound so far from last week. I started at 222 and am now down to 221.2. Slow, but progress. I want to get down to about 175-180, so I won't be overweight, but I won't look like a stick either.

I'm in the process of trying to purge all the fattening stuff from the house. I know you can't get rid of it all, one of the biggest reasons people fail diets is that they deny themselves cravings. Smokers can't quit cold turkey, they ween themselves. And that's what I'll be doing. So no more buying chocolate truffles....   :(  


......... but if I got some for my birthday coming up, it would be rude NOT to eat them, right??  ;)

My mornings

So a few weeks ago, a co worker of mine and I were talking and I asked him what he does to stay so young looking. He's in his 40's, but could easily pass for mid to late 20's. Other than the obvious working out, he introduced me to a protein shake called Syntha-6. This stuff works. I drink it at 8:30, and I usually don't get hungry again until about 1.

Lately though, I've been forcing the issue. 12 o'clock, lunch time. After having that mindset engraved in you from kindergarten on, its a little difficult to break. So my next goal, I think, should be to break myself of that. If I'm not hungry, why eat?  I've been doing it for years, out of boredom or just looking at my watch and saying, "Hey!! It's 12:00!!" Time to start breaking old habits.

Which brings me to tonites update. I didn't have time to make my lunch this morning, but instead of fast food, I chose a sub sandwich. A small, yet important victory I think. Got plenty of exercise today running around the warehouse like a headless chicken. I want to do more, bit until this bronchitis clears up, I'm kinda limited.

Had a normal meal for dinner, nothing too extreme. But not the healthiest of choices either. Slowly, I am getting better at realizing the crap I've been putting into my body. It has to stop. If not for my family, then to at least annoy the wife well into my old age.  ;)  

Goodnight.