Nobody gonna break a my stride

It's easy to get depressed. It's easy to give up. Sometimes it just takes over. I still haven't lost the weight I want to. Still haven't completed those project I wanted to. And to top it off, I got laid off. As of the 31st, I will be unemployed. For the first time in 18 years, I will wake up with no job to go to. Technically I haven't worked since the 11th, but I was on furlough. Technically still had a job, just no work. It'll be official on the 31st.

I have mostly good memories of my time at The Scooter Store. Mostly. There were a couple of bad, deceitful things going on for a short period of time. But they have a way of correcting themselves. I will miss everyone from that office. I will miss all the customers. I had the privilege of working both in the office and in the field. I got the best of both worlds.

But my biggest worry is about the customers. TSS laid of 1500 people. Only 300 people work for them nation wide. Where will they get service when their chairs and scooters break down? Who can they call? Most cannot afford repairs out of pocket, and no sane DME company will touch TSS equipment with Medicare not reimbursing. Very sad.

So what to do? Anything I want. I was always told to go to work by my dad. Bills had to be paid. Unfortunately, because I did that, I have no education outside high school. That will soon change. I have decided to go to school to enter the IT field. It's something I have wanted to do for years but was just too busy. I'm not doing much anything now, so I got time.

I feel relief that I no longer have to worry about ordering inventory, or cycle counting the 86 location, but a small part of me wishes I did. I will miss DME, but I must close that that chapter of my life. I'm not gettin any younger!!!

Signs

Everywhere there's signs. Hell, they even made a song about it. So why can't people read them? Seriously. Where I work it states clearly on the front door, "No Soliciting". But three days this week we have had people in teams of two come to our door and try to sell us something. Insurance, phones, it's getting annoying. I understand the though economy thanks to King Obama, but we are struggling too. I don't have much disposable income, so please, stop soliciting!!!

Been a while

Six months go by quick. My dear seven readers, I hope I haven't lost you. Many things going on, so lets start.

So as y'all know, my boss got fired. I was thinking of applying for the job, but I decided that, after thinking about it, realized that the other drivers probably wouldn't respect or listen to me. The office needed leadership. And that was a good choice. Our new boss is excellent. He actually WORKS!! Not like the last one. I don't have to do the boss's job anymore!! Lol.

Everything also worked out well for school. After six long months, I finally had a chance to test for certification. Well if y'all already didn't know, I did pass. I am now a RESNA certified ATP. now I just need to find a job where I can use it.

That's the good news, now on to he not so good. I did join a gym, but quit in November. Too busy with life. Ten+ hour work days were just killing me. That and the holidays approaching with out my father and internal family issues was depressing me.

What am I trying to say? I'm saying I didn't lose any weight. Oh I stayed busy in 2012. But the weight I lost I ended up gaining back in the last two months if the year. It's easy I get depressed and say fudge it. But no, I will take the information I gathered last year and apply it to this year. I WILL lose the weight. It'll just take longer than I expect.

I have more to update, but I don't want to spill all the beans in one post. You'll just have to keep checking back.

Love you all!!!

Broken!!

Plateau is over!!! Finally broke through it, and I couldn't be happier. I am beginning to learn its just not about diet, its also exercise. I've been moving a whole lot lately, not really giving myself too much time to veg. A form of cardio I suppose. It seems to have worked, but I am not losing the weight as fast as I once was. No worries, I think. It'll come off the right, healthy way.

Another good factor in breaking the plateau is that we are expanding at work. I've been busy for a few days tearing down racks and condensing and moving product. So needless to say, what with the recent humidity, I've been pretty ripe when I get home. But my B.O. was NOTHING compared to what we had a few days ago. Apparently, something crawled under my house and decided to DIE!!! It left behind a foul odor that I thought would linger for days. Thankfully it didn't. Perhaps some other critter decided to make a meal out of it, I suppose. Conclusion???? Time to get more chicken wire!!!!

Finally, I am a big believer of the adage, "If you can't afford gas, you don't need a car". It can be applied to so many things. So I'll take it here..... IF YOU CAN'T AFFORD TO TIP THE DELIVERY DRIVER, YOU CANT AFFORD TO GET A PIZZA DELIVERED!!!! The delivery charge doesn't go to the driver. We make less than minimum wage and depend on tips. So please show your appreciation to us who deliver to you by tipping us. We make it possible so you don't have to leave your home to get dinner on the table for your family, so please help put dinner on our families' table. We don't do this for charity, we need to make a living, just like you.

Where the HELL have you been!!!!!!

OK, I've got good news and bad news. Good news, to quote Mark Twain, "The rumors of my death have been greatly exaggerated." (And to those of you who thought 'well that's the bad news', you can go sit on your thumb). The bad news, I have fallen off the wagon. I didn't slam face first, but I haven't done anything to help my situation. I am still using Syntha-6, still taking all my meds, and still watching what I eat......... watching it go into my mouth...... So I have gained a couple pounds back. I haven't lost all the progress I've made, but I did take a few steps back.

It has been a rough month. Not only did I have to endure the anniversary of my fathers death, his birthday was three weeks later. The family did celebrate, but it was still tough none the less. Little did I know that next on deck, wifey had to have back to back medical procedures. Good times. No worries, shes OK folks. Finally, I decided to get a second job. I don't NEED it, but it's nice to have the extra money, considering I had to take a pay cut to ensure I got 40 hours a week. So while I'm making some extra cash, I am actually preventing myself from sitting on my ass watching TV and pigging out more. WIN!

I could've let this blog wither away. I am not going to be able to update it as much as I like to anymore, so that was the logical choice. But an old friend inspired me to write again. They told me that they missed my posts, and in the past told me that in some way I inspire them. Weird, huh? So like the trooper I am, I shall endure. I can no longer consider this blog just for me. If y'all DO read it and it helps, no matter how many times I fall off that wagon, I believe I have done something for the better. So, thank you, my dear 7 readers.

Choices

We all have them. We all make them on a daily basis. Some are obvious. Do I get out of bed or sleep in? Do I make my lunch or do I go out? To be or not to be? Heh.... But some are more difficult, especially in my situation. To eat that key lime pie or not? To watch that extra episode of Family Guy or work out? Recently I wrote about how I want to clean up my life, from thoughts, to things and even people. And thinking about the choices I have made in the latter department, I sincerely hope I have made the right ones. Some were easy, others not so much. But they were all made for a reason, to improve my focus on what really matters, my family and health. I have been neglecting them for far too long. So what's done is done. And if you, dear reader, are one of the people who I had to make that choice about, just remember, I NEVER burn bridges. I am sorry, but it has to be this way.... for now.

Moving on, it is official. I have been pulled off the road at work. I now work in the warehouse permanently. Some may think I am a fool, losing all the overtime, but I did it for two reasons. First, it's steady work, with a set start and end time. That gives me the opportunity to plan things during the week, and possibly go to school. And B., (secondly for those who were paying attention) a new routing system is coming to my job. And from what I hear about it from talking with other locations who already have it, it's going to be a rough transition. Times are already tough now, so I went where the work was. I'm happy, you should be, too, damnit!!!

Ahh, tonights dinner. Peppercorn talipia, fresh spinach and rice pilaf. The sauce wasn't that good, so I scraped it off. Only about 650 calories for all of it, not too shabby. I did go above 1600 today though. Damn you Mountain Dew!!!!! But I stayed below 2000. I have been drinking alot more water lately, which is helping. And I am also almost out of Syntha-6. So far so good. Its a slow transition, but working so far. Tomorrow, I start the heavy bag. Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. Gonna ramp it up!!!

Now all I need is some good music to box to. One can only listen to "Eye of the Tiger" so much.....

Highs & Lows

Today is a bitter sweet day.

 The good.... I have a new job at work. I've been pulled off the road to handle the warehouse. Organizing, stocking, making sure everything flows smoothly.Nothing will come into or leave that warehouse with out my knowledge. Inventory wasn't too bad this year, but it could've been better. Next years goal is to have a perfect one. 10 corrections MAX. Another reason I am happy is because it is a guaranteed 40 hours. A new routing program is coming to our office, and it only schedules efficient routes. So, if I were on the road, I may not get paid my 40...... and I need my 40. It also gives me the opportunity to go to school. I was hoping to go for IT, but I may have to be practical and go for a business degree. Or if I feel froggy, both.  ;)  Today was my last day on the road. I am going to miss it, but my future can't be on pavement.

The bad..... It is 6:15 pm as I am writing this. In about 6 hours will be the 1 year anniversary of my fathers passing. I got a bit teared up about it today on the road too. In fact, I'm tearing up about it a bit now. I can't believe its already been a year, it seems so fresh. The wifey has been a doll about it, too, giving me a bit more leeway with me and my emotions toward her lately. She's a trooper. I do miss him and could've used his advice recently about something, but I thought to myself, "What would dad do" and did it. I also know he's in a better place and no longer suffering.

I did however pay tribute to him by getting the same tattoo he had..........

I would say Jess at Todd Lake Studios did a great job. (Mine is on top, dad on the bottom)

I will not eat emotionally tonite, good or bad day. I have to keep focused on the goal. The first year is tough, but with all the good things happening around me, supportive friends, family, and blog readers, it'll be OK.