Nobody gonna break a my stride

It's easy to get depressed. It's easy to give up. Sometimes it just takes over. I still haven't lost the weight I want to. Still haven't completed those project I wanted to. And to top it off, I got laid off. As of the 31st, I will be unemployed. For the first time in 18 years, I will wake up with no job to go to. Technically I haven't worked since the 11th, but I was on furlough. Technically still had a job, just no work. It'll be official on the 31st.

I have mostly good memories of my time at The Scooter Store. Mostly. There were a couple of bad, deceitful things going on for a short period of time. But they have a way of correcting themselves. I will miss everyone from that office. I will miss all the customers. I had the privilege of working both in the office and in the field. I got the best of both worlds.

But my biggest worry is about the customers. TSS laid of 1500 people. Only 300 people work for them nation wide. Where will they get service when their chairs and scooters break down? Who can they call? Most cannot afford repairs out of pocket, and no sane DME company will touch TSS equipment with Medicare not reimbursing. Very sad.

So what to do? Anything I want. I was always told to go to work by my dad. Bills had to be paid. Unfortunately, because I did that, I have no education outside high school. That will soon change. I have decided to go to school to enter the IT field. It's something I have wanted to do for years but was just too busy. I'm not doing much anything now, so I got time.

I feel relief that I no longer have to worry about ordering inventory, or cycle counting the 86 location, but a small part of me wishes I did. I will miss DME, but I must close that that chapter of my life. I'm not gettin any younger!!!

Where the HELL have you been!!!!!!

OK, I've got good news and bad news. Good news, to quote Mark Twain, "The rumors of my death have been greatly exaggerated." (And to those of you who thought 'well that's the bad news', you can go sit on your thumb). The bad news, I have fallen off the wagon. I didn't slam face first, but I haven't done anything to help my situation. I am still using Syntha-6, still taking all my meds, and still watching what I eat......... watching it go into my mouth...... So I have gained a couple pounds back. I haven't lost all the progress I've made, but I did take a few steps back.

It has been a rough month. Not only did I have to endure the anniversary of my fathers death, his birthday was three weeks later. The family did celebrate, but it was still tough none the less. Little did I know that next on deck, wifey had to have back to back medical procedures. Good times. No worries, shes OK folks. Finally, I decided to get a second job. I don't NEED it, but it's nice to have the extra money, considering I had to take a pay cut to ensure I got 40 hours a week. So while I'm making some extra cash, I am actually preventing myself from sitting on my ass watching TV and pigging out more. WIN!

I could've let this blog wither away. I am not going to be able to update it as much as I like to anymore, so that was the logical choice. But an old friend inspired me to write again. They told me that they missed my posts, and in the past told me that in some way I inspire them. Weird, huh? So like the trooper I am, I shall endure. I can no longer consider this blog just for me. If y'all DO read it and it helps, no matter how many times I fall off that wagon, I believe I have done something for the better. So, thank you, my dear 7 readers.

Highs & Lows

Today is a bitter sweet day.

 The good.... I have a new job at work. I've been pulled off the road to handle the warehouse. Organizing, stocking, making sure everything flows smoothly.Nothing will come into or leave that warehouse with out my knowledge. Inventory wasn't too bad this year, but it could've been better. Next years goal is to have a perfect one. 10 corrections MAX. Another reason I am happy is because it is a guaranteed 40 hours. A new routing program is coming to our office, and it only schedules efficient routes. So, if I were on the road, I may not get paid my 40...... and I need my 40. It also gives me the opportunity to go to school. I was hoping to go for IT, but I may have to be practical and go for a business degree. Or if I feel froggy, both.  ;)  Today was my last day on the road. I am going to miss it, but my future can't be on pavement.

The bad..... It is 6:15 pm as I am writing this. In about 6 hours will be the 1 year anniversary of my fathers passing. I got a bit teared up about it today on the road too. In fact, I'm tearing up about it a bit now. I can't believe its already been a year, it seems so fresh. The wifey has been a doll about it, too, giving me a bit more leeway with me and my emotions toward her lately. She's a trooper. I do miss him and could've used his advice recently about something, but I thought to myself, "What would dad do" and did it. I also know he's in a better place and no longer suffering.

I did however pay tribute to him by getting the same tattoo he had..........

I would say Jess at Todd Lake Studios did a great job. (Mine is on top, dad on the bottom)

I will not eat emotionally tonite, good or bad day. I have to keep focused on the goal. The first year is tough, but with all the good things happening around me, supportive friends, family, and blog readers, it'll be OK.