BE the honey badger

Good weekend. Made alot of bank, got stuff done that I have been neglecting for weeks, and I'm on my third (yes third!!!) bottle of Synthe-6. I have never stuck with anything like this for so long. The stuff really works, keeping me full for hours!!! Contact me if you need more info.
Got a little frustrated last night. Found out a friend reconciled with and old friend. For some reason it hurt me, because of everything I know about the relationship. But then I thought, why does this affect ME? I haven't hung around either of them in months, so why should I care. So, I decided to be the honey badger, and not care. I am happy for them that they decided to bury the hatchet, but it's not going to change the way I live my life. In fact, I don't believe anything will change, and the status quo will remain the same.

Frustrations continued, however, through the night. As I was sitting at my computer one of the cartridges for my Blu ran out. No biggie. So I opened another one. Dead. Had nothing in it. Brand new, right out of the box. OK, so I go for another one. DEAD! So i change batteries. First one, still dead. But alas, the second one did work. The problem with these e-cigs is that it is a machine. Machines fail. Regular cigs don't. But I'll stick with it. Don't wanna go back too far.  

I haven't weighed myself in weeks. Because of everything going on in the last four weeks, I haven't been mindful of what I eat, or exercising. And this second job is taking all the energy that I would normally use to exercise. Don't get me wrong, the money is great, and I am getting some exercise, just not the way I wanted to. The only comfort I take in all of this is knowing I can quit at any time. Just have to get a few unexpected bills paid off, and it'll be all good. Good night.......

Happy New Year!!!

I do hope that everyone who was reading this blog two days ago is alive and well. It means you weren't stupid on New Year's eve. Some of you may have regrets because you hooked up with somebody..... well...... let's just say somebody you wouldn't hook up with when you were sober..... I'm sure you may wish you weren't alive. HAAHAHA!!!!!  Egh, the haunting's of New Year's past......

Anyhow, I've been spending the last two days cleaning house, figuratively and in actuality. Gone are the chocolate truffles, Ben & Jerry's ice cream, and other empty carbs. I went grocery shopping today and bought bananas. Salads. Fish. Ground chicken. And I realized yet another thing. Eating healthy is expensive. It's like these companies WANT you to eat their processed crap. For $6, I can go to McDonald's and stuff my  face with a Big Mac. Or for about $8, I eat healthy. So I gotta figure out a better way to eat healthy AND stick to a budget. A tricky balance.

I also started to rid myself of the drama. Actually, I started it about 45 minutes after I posted last. I let it be known that I have lost alot of respect for a long time friend for the what he did on New Year's Eve. I probably pissed him off to no end, but I hope he got the message. I won't go into details, but I will say that no one, no matter who they are or what they've done, deserves to be left in continuous limbo...... On to other subjects....

So as I am slowly transition to healthier foods, I still do have cravings for the junk food I have come to covet. I split a frozen pizza with the wifey today. It took an hour for my belly to stop bitching at me for that. Oh well for that. I've also been reading up a bit on B12. Oh well for that too. From what I've been reading, it really doesn't help unless you have a deficiency. I did however do alot around the house today, and in my personal office. Its been a disaster for weeks, and its finally not so MUCH of a disaster. Small steps, small steps.........

Finally, today is my birthday. I have gotten ALOT of messages today wishing me a Happy Birthday. For that, I thank you all. I could've had a Key Lime cake today, but if I start making exceptions today, I'll do it over and over again.

...........besides, last years cake will be difficult to top.

Odditty

OK, so I haven't been posting for a few days. End of the year activities at work have to take precedence over blogging. It pays the bills and keeps the internet up. HAHA!! During this time I have been running around like a headless chicken again, going back and forth over things I've gone through dozens of times. So that means not much time to really think about what I am eating, drinking, and overall putting into my body.

This morning I woke up with a sick feeling. I am just now getting over this creeping crud thats been keeping me down for so long. Then it dawned on me; all the crap I've been eating. Ugh..... But I sucked it up and went to the dreadded scale to face the consequences.............

BELOW 220!!!!!!!    218.7 to be precise. I seriously don't know how it happened. I haven't been eating too bad, but at the same time, not too well either. I thought about it for a while and realized... because I've been so busy, I didn't have TIME to stuff my face with all the snacks. Just lunch and dinner. Maybe that's the way to start. So, 2012 will be the year of.........

KEEPING BUSY!!!!

What does that mean for me? Ridding myself of all things that distract me. And it is all encompassing. Crappy food, useless pursuits of vanity and possession, and sadly, people. I just cannot tolerate the drama any longer. It takes me away from the things that are important to me and eats away at my soul. And it's a big part of the reason I have been abusing my body. No más! Now, admittedly, some people I know will have some problems come up and they usually come to me. That I can handle. But ongoing drama..... no. I'm done.

Well, Happy New Year everybody!!!!! See you in 2012!!!!